Service Book of Days – 8/31/09

31 08 2009

You know at one time I got tired of doing these posts every week as I found myself just making up stuff to put in it.  I think I missed the purpose of them.  The purpose is to not make me feel burdened but for me to take a moment and remember my life day by day and not just “go through” this life unaware.  At least that’s what sunk in for me as I posting this week’s post.

Outside my window…it was a bright day a little on the chilly side.

· my thoughts… are living honestly and open

· Today’s Quote…  People often say that beauty if in the eye of the beholder and I say that the most liberating thing about beauty is realizing that you are the beholder.  This empowers us to find beauty in places where others have not dared to look including inside ourselves…Salma Hayek

· i am thankful for… the many opportunities i have for growth

· From my service training… to be honest with myself.  this means being honest in looking at and working through all of the messy emotions and messy emotions are not easy for me.  i might try and fool myself into glossing over and only looking as far as the surface but to be honest to myself and to Master requires that I do more than just the minimum.

· From the kitchen… curry rice, mixed vegetables and baked chicken.

· i am wearing… a turquoise sundress

· i am creating… nothing…i am letting my Father’s universe guide me

· my adventures this week… school shopping and getting the kids ready for the rigors of highschool and middle school

· Becoming well read… A dragonfly in Amber…listening slowly to the Four Agreements (again)

· Today’s Melody… “And I gave my Love to you”…Sonja Marie…From the Waiting to Exhale Soundtrack

· One of my favorite things… Laughing out loud…I mean really loud…makes the body feel good.

· Further plans for this week… school shopping and preparing the kids for school.  I have one senior, one middle schooler (7th grade) and one 10th grader.

· Still….life… simple obedience.


Master Void’s slave

Interested in knowing where the quote and the idea for my weekly post came from.  Click this link.  You will also find some great ideas on service even if you are without someone to serve.

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Video: Whipping Rope

28 08 2009

Not as kinky as you may think.  I actually use a 4th technique. Maybe I will make a video of that for you guys.



Purchasing Rope Online: A Sordid Tale of Disappointment with Rainbow Rope

26 08 2009

So I like to grow and expand what I do when it comes to Lifestyle activities. A long time ago, I did a little rope work, learned most of the basics, then moved on. I still had my bag of rope, and drug it along with me when I went to play. But, I decided to get some new rope and push the limits of what I was doing.

I did some research, and tried to figure out what I wanted. I then decided to buy some bondage specific rope and try something new. I Googled bondage rope, and saw a familiar name as the first result. I had heard of Rainbow Rope and had seen them at most of the bigger conferences that I had been to, so I thought that they would be a good source for me to buy my next bondage gear from, instead of the Dom Depot or Wally World, where I normally buy my rope from. Little did I know the aggravation this decision would cause me.

Book of Days – August 24

24 08 2009

Outside my window… is dark and the sky is a little overcast…but the streets are quiet for a change.

· my thoughts… are silent.  i am listening.

· Today’s Quote…Passage Psalm 62:5:My soul, wait in silence for God only, For my hope is from Him.

· i am thankful for… the little things and big things.  i am thankful for the intesity of the hurtful things and the joy in the happy times.  i am thankful that i can feel life instead of letting life pass me by.  Someone shared with me in their writings this phrase “Live Life Wide Awake”.  I love that.   Be aware of every moment of your life.

· From my service training… i am learning to know when to stop talking.  silence is golden

· From the kitchen… turkey meatloaf, sugar snap peas and rice

· i am wearing… black shorts and a purple tshirt (Master’s favorite color is purple)

· i am creating… nothing…i am letting my Father’s universe guide me

· my adventures this week… picking my daughter up from the airport and going school shopping for the kids

· Becoming well read… A dragonfly in Amber…listening slowly to the Four Agreements (again)

· Today’s Melody… Give it to me Right – Melanie Fiona.  This song has an old school feel with great lyrics

· One of my favorite things… hot pastries…corny jokes

· Further plans for this week… school shopping and preparing the kids for school.  I have one senior, one middle schooler and one 10th grader.

· Still….life…



21 08 2009

2 Thessalonians 1:11-12 (New International Version)

 11With this in mind, we constantly pray for you, that our God may count you worthy of his calling, and that by his power he may fulfill every good purpose of yours and every act prompted by your faith. 12We pray this so that the name of our Lord Jesus may be glorified in you, and you in him, according to the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ.[a]


  1. 2 Thessalonians 1:12 Or God and Lord, Jesus Christ

 You know there was a time when I preached the word of the Lord to everyone and anyone that would listen.  I would preach at every opportunity and with zeal baby…lol  Then one day I “heard” myself speaking and said “man I talk too much and sometimes don’t know what the heck that I am talking about”.  I started to feel like I was talking not for the Lord but I was talking to hear myself talk.  I started really liking people coming to hear me speak not the Lord.  It got to the point were the Word wasn’t speaking to me but I was still speaking.  I totally remember the point where I actually had nothing to say, there was no inspiration, no inkling, no nothing.  I mean everything was empty.  It was like looking into a cup and realizing that there was nothing in it.  Yet I said something.  I had to save face and keep these people listening to me.  I could feel people looking at me like “what in the world is she saying” and felt that they knew I was faking it.  So my inside voice said that the Lord is not speaking to me and that I needed to stop talking and listen.  With complete clarity and without a moments hesitation I knew what was said to me was true and my mouth shut.  That was many years ago.  It didn’t mean to me that the Lord had left me.  The Lord will never leave me.  He already told me that, on several occasions. J  It meant that my time of speaking had come to a point where it is now my time of listening.  So when people speak to me of the Lord, I listen.  When I see or am shown scripture I read and listen.  I don’t speak about or talk about religion, I listen and quietly, patiently wait for the time when the Lord tells me to speak again.  This has been a lesson that I have learned or needed to learn in many instances and thank you Lord for being patient with me.  It is an ongoing learning process to listen and not speak with my Master, children, family, work associates, and strangers.  In the back of my mind I always think I know and no one else need tell me but when I start to speak I hear the emptiness of my words and feel the frustration of those who are talking to me and so I apologize and listen.  Because what I don’t know is how it will impact me to listen and how it will impact them to be heard.

 “Non-doing defines doing. Sitting in stillness invites people to move. Getting out of the way allows people to fill space with their passion. Letting go of expectations leaves room for responsibility to come forth. All of this is integrity. Every piece of doing requires the strong presence of non-doing to anchor it.

 Stifling every impulse to intervene, to give directions and orders leaves space for others to design their lives. You can create a container and then stand by and watch it fill and teem with life. You don’t resist the natural movements of groups of people co-creating their futures. Instead you work on your own inability to be still, to want to own the outcomes, to want to invest your ego.

 This is not your show. You are holding space, embodying space and being empty and full at the same time. If they thank you in the closing circle, you have not done enough.”

 The Tao of Holding Space by Chris Corrigan (passed along to me by my friend namaste~)

 So I speak when I am spoken to and am thankfully thankful for the moments when I can listen.


MV’s esclave

Knife Play Basics

19 08 2009

I wanted to take a few minutes of your time today and teach you a bit about knife play. I want to explain what knife play is and isn’t, share with you some basic knife play techniques for beginners, and point to a great knife vendor for those that are a bit more advanced and looking for a good knife or 12.

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Service Book of Days – 8/15/09

17 08 2009

•  Outside my window…or as I opened my eyes today…I looked up and saw the glow in the dark stickers my children hung on my ceiling.  Iam reminded of how blessed I am 

•  my thoughts…are mindful and appreciative

 •  Today’s Quote… Knowledge speaks, but wisdom listens. ~ Jimi Hendrix  This resonated with me today as I am going to spend time with my Master and my biggest challenge is learning to be quiet.  I have fought many years to have my voice heard and with him I don’t have to. 

•  i am thankful for…each day and moment that i have and being able to tell my family i love them

•  From my service training… I am learning what it means to slave to my Master; not just with words but in actions as well

•  From the kitchen… I am learning how to cook for less people, with less money, in a less processed way

•  i am wearing…nothing…it is early and the kids are still asleep and I like to feel the fan blowing over my body, revelling in the freedom before being bound by modesty.

•  i am creating… I am creating myself with acceptance and peace – this week it entails realizing that my life is to be shared

•  my adventures this week… driving down to be with Master and a lot of kinky friends at BlackBEAT.

•  Becoming well read…  Listening to a book on podcast about metahumans…I love science fiction

•  i manifest and co-create… time for everyone without feeling ambivalent

•  Listening to the Melody… of the sound of the birds chirping in the early morning light.  I love the quiet of the mornign before people awake

•  One of my favorite things… is to just laugh out loud

•  Further plans for this week…school shopping for the kids

•  Still….life (share a picture you’ve taken OR a picture you found online that speaks to you)


 Interested in knowing where the quote and the idea for my weekly post came from.  Click this link.  You will also find some great ideas on service even if you are without someone to serve.

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