I was recently interviewed for an article concerning the first conference I have ever went to…BlackBEAT.
I read the article and wasn’t really feeling the slant the article took and it didn’t actually vibe with me. For some reason I kept wishing that the article was focussed more on expanding the classes, having more extras…fun, fun, fun.
Then I thought about it more. This article was actually spot on. There was so much truth in this article….simple truth that makes BlackBEAT more than just another conference in a long line of conferences. There is just something about hugs at BlackBEAT.
When I made the decision to attend BlackBEAT alone I worried that I would get lost in the mix of people that would attend. One of the things I did was sign up to volunteer so that I could be seen and get to know others who came. I am normally a quiet person in crowds and not very welcoming to others so this was my way of getting out of my head. I had no need to worry. The first person I met when I entered the hotel was Cyberdiva. She might not realize this or even remember it but that hug and welcome she gave me meant the world to me. I felt accepted and welcomed.
It touched something in me and no matter what the rest of the conference held that hug opened me up to be receptive to other hugs and other meetings and other experiences outside of what I usually allowed in my personal space. When Master and I were leaving the O’Kink Family Reunion, Mistress Max hugged me to say goodbye and I just broke down and cried. There is just something about hugs given and received at BlackBEAT.
I have to say with each BlackBEAT I have attended it is the same feeling…even at the scaled down day of Survivor Saturday. Seeing everyone, coming home, being around family…those are the things that make BlackBEAT for me. The classes, the knowledge shared, the lessons taught and learned are icing on a delicious red velvet cake.
Think I am the only way who feels this way…Nope…check it out…there are others.
If you feel like stepping out and attending a conference this should be your first step…BlackBEAT 2012. Go with open arms as hugs will be given freely.
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Thank you for your blog entries. You and I have never met, but I so admire Master Void.. and you are meeting so many people I knew “growing up” in kink. So, I feel like I do know you. 🙂
Maybe someday I’ll come home and we’ll meet. Regards to your Master.
@his_songstresss…Thank you so much for your comments. I hope we do get a chance to meet 🙂
I do so enjoy reading about your journry; it gives me other perspectives on mine and what I can do to better improve myself. I look forward to reading each entry and may look at doing a journal myself. I wish you are your Master a lovely journey.