Life is a risk. Diane Von Furstenberg
I was speaking with Master about something yesterday. I said to him during the conversation that things will change or I’ll give up.
That phrase “give up” has been wandering around in my mind a lot.
In the past that phrase would have meant me getting things in order physically, mentally, and emotionally so that I can leave. I would be shutting down and giving up the fight and getting ready to move on safe in the knowledge that I have done all that I could. Such a self sacrificing martyr.
Thank God for lessons learned.
This time I am going to give u… but I am not leaving. I am giving up my martyrdom though. I am giving up “making” people happy (kids, family members,etc.). I am giving up this stress as it is causing my jaw to hurt and my body to be sick.
I can’t control everything that happens in this life but I can take the risk of living it truthfully and authentically. Right now that means giving up those things that are not a part of my personal growth.
Like floating lanterns in the wind that’s how I am giving them up, they are not for me anymore.