I knew this when I started. Being a good master is hard. Really hard. It requires constant attention to your behavior. Requires consistency in your actions. That doesn’t mean you can’t grow. You can change. But you need to allow your slave to adjust.
Watch out for love. It will sap your will. It will make you less consistent. I was aware of this possibility, it still happened.
And, when you figure it out, it is a long slow recovery. Only you can fix the shit you created.
Remember though, that it can be fixed. and you have to fix it.